Good day everyone. My chosen name is Braxton Presley-Hart, after a couple of false starts. I'm 26 years and live in rural England.
I would like to share my excitement in joining this community. This is my first forum concerning this topic, but I look forward to learning and growing as a person.
I would say it has been about 3 years since I came to the realisation that I was not simply a male. Gender issues a complex concept that it was difficult for me, to begin with, to understand what I am and who I want to be. It started with exploring my feminine side and looking at how I could dress more androgynous.
The year of 2020 was tumultuous for practically everyone on the planet and during my time at home, shielding due to an illness, I was able to explore and discover many things about myself. This brought about my first purchase: breast forms. I was very new and swiftly get a pocket bra after trying to tape such items to my skin to no avail! I went for a B cup as I researched this size would suit my hip and shoulder measurements. I proceeded to get a 36" bra, and now know that an upgrade is imminent.
This filled me with euphoria and I finally started to fell myself, but the label I would use was still a conundrum. I understand labels are harmful, but, for my piece of mind, I wanted something that fit my view. I played with "Demiboy" for a few weeks, but felt too childish for myself, so I looked again and settled for "gender fluid" as this is an umbrella term. I still use this now,, for ease of explanation and acceptance, but I feel "paramale" is more suited. Now
that I am happy with my choice, I really wanted to give Braxton a personality, so I have a friend who supported me to get a wig. I am in the process of working out a style for this, and fashion sense, that suits this persona I am trying to create.
I find it difficult living a double life, but I know I would not be accepted for my choices, and I'd rather be safe and secret. Nevertheless, I am proud of myself and continue to find new avenues that help me on this journey.
I hope this helps someone who may be in the same, or similar, situation, and they can find the help they need.
Thanks for reading x
I would like to share my excitement in joining this community. This is my first forum concerning this topic, but I look forward to learning and growing as a person.
I would say it has been about 3 years since I came to the realisation that I was not simply a male. Gender issues a complex concept that it was difficult for me, to begin with, to understand what I am and who I want to be. It started with exploring my feminine side and looking at how I could dress more androgynous.
The year of 2020 was tumultuous for practically everyone on the planet and during my time at home, shielding due to an illness, I was able to explore and discover many things about myself. This brought about my first purchase: breast forms. I was very new and swiftly get a pocket bra after trying to tape such items to my skin to no avail! I went for a B cup as I researched this size would suit my hip and shoulder measurements. I proceeded to get a 36" bra, and now know that an upgrade is imminent.
This filled me with euphoria and I finally started to fell myself, but the label I would use was still a conundrum. I understand labels are harmful, but, for my piece of mind, I wanted something that fit my view. I played with "Demiboy" for a few weeks, but felt too childish for myself, so I looked again and settled for "gender fluid" as this is an umbrella term. I still use this now,, for ease of explanation and acceptance, but I feel "paramale" is more suited. Now
that I am happy with my choice, I really wanted to give Braxton a personality, so I have a friend who supported me to get a wig. I am in the process of working out a style for this, and fashion sense, that suits this persona I am trying to create.
I find it difficult living a double life, but I know I would not be accepted for my choices, and I'd rather be safe and secret. Nevertheless, I am proud of myself and continue to find new avenues that help me on this journey.
I hope this helps someone who may be in the same, or similar, situation, and they can find the help they need.
Thanks for reading x
Love,
Braxton X
Paramale TG
"Remember this, whoever you are, however you are, you are equally valid, equally justified, and equally beautiful."
— Juno Dawson, 'The Gender Games: The Problems With Men and Women, From Someone Who Has Been Both,' 2017.
Braxton X
Paramale TG
"Remember this, whoever you are, however you are, you are equally valid, equally justified, and equally beautiful."
— Juno Dawson, 'The Gender Games: The Problems With Men and Women, From Someone Who Has Been Both,' 2017.
