I'm going to tell you something that happened to me that I was always afraid would happen. It happened on New Year's Eve 2015. Actually, it was technically New Year's Day 2016. First, you have to understand that when I am not dressed I love girls. When I am dressed I want to be with a guy. So I'm bi. This past New Years I met a guy online and we video chatted and we decided to get together. He was staying at a nearby hotel, a really nice one and we worked it out so that he would come meet me outside at my car and walk me in through a side door. The ones you open with your room card. Ok, so I've done this before and at 1am theres usually not a soul around so the chances of being seen are pretty low. But what I didn't take into consideration was the fact that this night was New Year's Eve! Now, no matter how well my makeup is and no matter how passable I may or may not be, in my head I'm convinced people will know and mock me. I mean the fear is at such a high level its a wonder I put myself in so many situations where I could be seen. But I do!
So its about 1am and I pull into the parking lot of this hotel and there are souls around! Not too many, but definitely more activity going on than a normal night. So my guy comes down to meet me and I convey to him my fear. Well he's sort of understanding but he still tries to get me to ignore it and says no one is gonna know and if they did know and stare it would mean they wanted me too. lol I wasnt buying that. But as soon as the coast was clear we entered in through the side door and made our way down a hall to the elevator. My guy could hardly keep his hands off me, but he was a gentleman and way cute! We stepped into the elevator and the door was almost closed when someone reached in and stopped the door and it opened again. It was a guy and a girl and I was COMPLETELY MORTIFIED!!!!!!! I looked down towards the ground and my hair was very long and it hid most of my face. But I was dressed like a pornstar! I was completely frozen and couldn't even blink or breath.
The man says how are you guys doing to my guy and he says good. I can tell they are very drunk but then the man says "is she ok?" OMG I can't believe that level of fear and embarrassment doesn't kill you. It should kill you, but it doesnt. My guy said I was fine just a little drunk and tired. And that was it. A few seconds later the elevator door opened and they were gone and a few moments later I was safe in his room.
So that's it. That's a true story and it really happened to me this last New Years. So I guess the reason I'm sharing this event is to hopefully get feedback on how to overcome that kind of fear.
Thank you for the time!
Kisses,
Tawny
So its about 1am and I pull into the parking lot of this hotel and there are souls around! Not too many, but definitely more activity going on than a normal night. So my guy comes down to meet me and I convey to him my fear. Well he's sort of understanding but he still tries to get me to ignore it and says no one is gonna know and if they did know and stare it would mean they wanted me too. lol I wasnt buying that. But as soon as the coast was clear we entered in through the side door and made our way down a hall to the elevator. My guy could hardly keep his hands off me, but he was a gentleman and way cute! We stepped into the elevator and the door was almost closed when someone reached in and stopped the door and it opened again. It was a guy and a girl and I was COMPLETELY MORTIFIED!!!!!!! I looked down towards the ground and my hair was very long and it hid most of my face. But I was dressed like a pornstar! I was completely frozen and couldn't even blink or breath.
The man says how are you guys doing to my guy and he says good. I can tell they are very drunk but then the man says "is she ok?" OMG I can't believe that level of fear and embarrassment doesn't kill you. It should kill you, but it doesnt. My guy said I was fine just a little drunk and tired. And that was it. A few seconds later the elevator door opened and they were gone and a few moments later I was safe in his room.
So that's it. That's a true story and it really happened to me this last New Years. So I guess the reason I'm sharing this event is to hopefully get feedback on how to overcome that kind of fear.
Thank you for the time!
Kisses,
Tawny
But my reaction to that is "I'm all in" if I'm taken there first by way of gentle touching and kissing on my neck etc... That's exactly how he was with me. I remembering being pleasantly surprised because other guys I have been with before him, most were nice but not as gentle. Him kissing my neck as we were standing in front of the mirror, one of those big ones every hotel room has. He was behind me with his hands on my shoulders and and he brushed my hair away from my neck and started kissing my neck. light soft kisses and blowing too. omg, softly blowing around my neck and ear. One thing about me is when my ear is blown and kissed I am completely at the person's mercy. Completely. And that's what happened. And then He took me. So yes ladies, I got laid. Instead of going into more details I wanna tell you something else. I woke up on the bed with my head at the foot of the bed. It was something like 9ish in the morning and light outside. New Years Day and the Parade was on the tv. I turned to look next to me and my frickin' heart jumped into my mouth. I saw 2 legs in black stockings and black high heals. There he was dressed with a Black blouse and wig and lipstck and makeup. Even false eyelashes! I remember so vividly him looking at me with the false eyelashes so matter of factly. I got dressed, gave him a kiss and drove home. THE END lol that's a true story happened to me 9 months ago.