New, nervous, and confused

[CanuckGirl]

In the last few months the desire to "look pretty" has built up to a new uncontrollable level. It's always been there, but way back there, but suddenly I just have to get some clothes and I immediately went down the rabbit hole. I have ordered almost everything and am giddy with anticipation for it to show up. The tricky part is that I'm nearly 50, overweight, married, and kids at home. I am nowhere near ready to talk with my wife, as I've never even actually dressed yet. My real question is, am I likely to lose this feeling as quickly as it hit? Am I in for a Rollercoaster of emotion? Anyone else gone through similar that can lend advice?

Dear Kimber, I became increasingly aware of my desire to be feminine... and quite honestly, the day I put on my first bra - the one I purchased myself... at the age of 50... I knew. It was not a passing fancy. It is an intense need. For me, I know it's who I am. It might be different for you. But I suspect not. I am married also. I love my wife. But I also know I am more and more feminine all the time.

Marci, yes that is much like me. I used to be happy dressing once every month or two for years and years, then "she" wanted more, now if I go more than a few days I get antsy and sometimes grumpy. Then after I dress up I'm at peace with everything again for a while.

 This is a deep need many of us have that only seems to get stronger.

 Amy

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I was finally able to get the site to allow me to upload/attach a photo.. it's the same one as my profile pic, just larger. I'll see about getting some better ones up....

 Kimber, glad to see your photo, and you look great, and for your first time amazing!

 Amy