Jessie trying to find herself....

[Wearpantiesbutwantmore]

I'm going to start off with its been a struggle lately.... been trying all kinds of websites trying to find a free way to find a way to embrace my femininity and the needs I seem to have... best I found is manhunt but still a lot of creeps... still to scared to hit the bookstores but love and fantasize about the idea of finding a glory hole... still love wearing panties and stockings  every chance I get,  but lately it's been tough to find the time... but recently found a nice gent to chat with and he has me doing things I have never tried and my curiosity is soaring..  last week I was modeling dresses, heels even  lingerie for him.. online of course... he even had me walk outside dressed albeit for a quick minute but I loved everything about it... I was so comfortable i wanted to give him my address..  I'm not sure where it's going but I am so willing to do more... I just get so aroused but as soon as I cum I immediately cut off communication... lately I feel like totally dressing up, would love to try make up.. and see where that leads... I wish there was a way to make this fantasy possible but hell everyday I continue to take it farther... Ive been growing out my hair for no particular reason,  I trimmed downstairs, shaved the boys and tainted area... it has me feeling incredibly promiscuous ... a couple more margaritas and hell I'm going to need a toy... why does this have to be so hard?!  if you made it this far I appreciate you and hopefully I'm not the only one that feels this way, I'm just venting and thanks for listening any advice is greatly appreciated 


Jessie